Ahhhh Ryan ;)
Your post reminds me of the times I hosted coming out groups for gents over 40. Your journey mirrors stories told by ages 50, 60, 70 and even 80.
I fondly recall an 82 year old - twice married, grandpa of dozens falling in head-over-heals - never-felt-before L.O.V.E. for the first time with a young whipper-snapper (69 year old) during his 10 week adventure in our coming out group.
This soul taught me - clearly - it's never - ever - ever - too late to experience genuine, mind-blowing companionship.
That particular group inspired me to pen - this.
Bowing in gratitude to you - for sharing your story!